Friday, January 9, 2009
Snow
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
My Beautiful Daughter
I can not believe she will be fourteen in only four short months.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Christmas time...
Well its almost that time again...
So many things have been happening in my life I don't have time to write on here. Although writing is one of my favorite past times. I find it healing and a release. I just don't have the time.
Christmas...hmmm well I did bake some gingerbread, although they sit naked on a plate..no time to decorate. Tonight maybe.
The tree is set up..there is nothing underneath it, but it looks pretty.
That would be all that I have done. I caught the last three minutes of a Charlie Brown Christmas..that just brought tears to my eyes and made me laugh at the same time. Christmas is just not the same anymore. My daughter is thirteen and has turned into a foreign creature. She is a whirlwind of drama, rebelliousness and hormones whipping through the house. Every day is a new fiasco to deal with.
As well it doesn't seem to matter that my mom died more than seven years ago, it stills feels like yesterday. Christmas and trying times with my daughter just make it more apparent how much I miss her.
I could look on the bright side. Everyone is healthy. That's good.
Anyways if I am not on here before Christmas...Merry Christmas Everyone !
So many things have been happening in my life I don't have time to write on here. Although writing is one of my favorite past times. I find it healing and a release. I just don't have the time.
Christmas...hmmm well I did bake some gingerbread, although they sit naked on a plate..no time to decorate. Tonight maybe.
The tree is set up..there is nothing underneath it, but it looks pretty.
That would be all that I have done. I caught the last three minutes of a Charlie Brown Christmas..that just brought tears to my eyes and made me laugh at the same time. Christmas is just not the same anymore. My daughter is thirteen and has turned into a foreign creature. She is a whirlwind of drama, rebelliousness and hormones whipping through the house. Every day is a new fiasco to deal with.
As well it doesn't seem to matter that my mom died more than seven years ago, it stills feels like yesterday. Christmas and trying times with my daughter just make it more apparent how much I miss her.
I could look on the bright side. Everyone is healthy. That's good.
Anyways if I am not on here before Christmas...Merry Christmas Everyone !
Friday, September 12, 2008
Feelings......
Friday...Finlay. It seems like such a long time since on here last...funny how that happens.
Tomorrow is going to be such a busy day. I am going back to Oliver for the night. My house is for sale and my ex has moved out and it seems all of my stuff is in a pile :(
I have to go back and pack. It will be weird to sleep at the house, not really sure how I feel about it.. scared, happy, sad, nervous,angry,and exhausted. I think I am still not at peace with the past. I have been able to place it in the back of my mind, and pick at the feelings one at a time to sort. I just haven't worked through them all. I feel that it is mostly anger now. I wish that I could let all of my feelings out on here, but I feel like I would be exposing myself.
"We should learn not to grow impatient with the slow healing process
of time. We should discipline ourselves to recognize that there are many steps
to be taken along the highway leading from sorrow to renewed serenity... We
should anticipate these stages in our emotional convalescence : unbearable pain,
poignant grief, empty days, resistance to consolation, disinterestedness in life,
gradually giving way...to the new weaving of a pattern of action and acceptance
of the irresistible challenge of life."
I am glad for what I have and the people in my life and the love they share with me.
Happiness is what you make of it...and I have total control of my own happiness.
I AM HAPPY :)
Tomorrow is going to be such a busy day. I am going back to Oliver for the night. My house is for sale and my ex has moved out and it seems all of my stuff is in a pile :(
I have to go back and pack. It will be weird to sleep at the house, not really sure how I feel about it.. scared, happy, sad, nervous,angry,and exhausted. I think I am still not at peace with the past. I have been able to place it in the back of my mind, and pick at the feelings one at a time to sort. I just haven't worked through them all. I feel that it is mostly anger now. I wish that I could let all of my feelings out on here, but I feel like I would be exposing myself.
"We should learn not to grow impatient with the slow healing process
of time. We should discipline ourselves to recognize that there are many steps
to be taken along the highway leading from sorrow to renewed serenity... We
should anticipate these stages in our emotional convalescence : unbearable pain,
poignant grief, empty days, resistance to consolation, disinterestedness in life,
gradually giving way...to the new weaving of a pattern of action and acceptance
of the irresistible challenge of life."
I am glad for what I have and the people in my life and the love they share with me.
Happiness is what you make of it...and I have total control of my own happiness.
I AM HAPPY :)
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Camping
Stasia tried out her new fly rod...I was so proud of her. I don't know if she likes it so much right now, but with a little more practice I know she will love it....just like her mom.
Anyways....just a short post for now...so many things to tell, but not the right time.
Bye for now.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Celebration of Lights 2008
Monday, July 21, 2008
Trying out the new cam
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)