Sunday, August 26, 2007
Now don't get me wrong...I love my life! I am fortunate for a lot of things. My health, my partners health and my daughters health. We also have plenty of things to be happy for as a family, a house, a running vehicle, bills paid and food in the cupboards etc.... but don't we all want something we don't have. I think that we do. I think by blogging this out it helps me in my own head to think. I know what lies ahead in my future is already written, but I like to believe that if I decide something it is of my own doing. I don't know if that makes sense, but oh well it does to me. Thanks for the time.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
The trip to Nanaimo is over. It was a wonderful time. This is a pic of me and Krista together at last. It has been years since we have been together and I can say that I have missed her more than words can say. I have never had a sister, but she is definitely as close to one as I will ever get. We are alike in so many ways, and to be with her was like remembering parts of myself that were lost.
I finally got to meet the boys and Hillary. Oh my sweet Hillary...I wish I could hold you in my arms every day.
Kale is so funny. He is the most articulate boy and so polite. I just could not stop smiling and laughing at him. He is such a breath of fresh air. Just a wonderful person to be around.
Sammy...hmmm what can I say about him. Once you look into his eyes and he smiles at you, that is it your done. I was wrapped around his finger from first look. He is so wonderful.
Aden.....I still miss you! I never got to spend any time getting to know you again. Maybe next time.
We spent time at Rathtrever and it was an absolutely gorgeous day. Krista and I took lots of photos. I think between the both of us we must have taken 300 in total. It was worth it. Time flew. Everyday was like a blur...I am sad that I never had more time. I miss the island, the smell of the ocean, the ocean itself, the memories, etc...which brings me to the mixed emotion part. I would love to start packing right now and move, but we have so many commitments here. Shane has the business, well we both do really. Stasia has her friends. We have our house and really this is were we have mad a life together. On the other hand, we could just sell it all and be off. Start a new journey start a new business. I would have what I have missed for years and get to watch not only my daughter grow, but Krista's kids too. I would love to be a bigger part of their life. To be able to just pop over when I wanted. Again....sadness and happiness mixed all together.
Home is hot. It rained the whole time on the island, that is something I don't miss. It is 119 degrees right now at home. That is a big difference from rain.
We went to Playland on our way home. Five and a half hours of spinning and jerking around on rides. Fabulous absolutely wonder full. Stasias cousin Courtney joined us. I am glad. I have missed her too. There was a period of years that I missed out on her life as well, but now I am so happy that she is back in our lives. Anyway it went well, until both Courtney and myself felt like we had to puke. I could not take anymore rides. We were suppose to stay at my brothers house that night, but I really wanted to come home. I missed my hunny (shhh don't tell) and I really wanted to sleep in my own bed. It was comfy. I went right to sleep, oh after I said hi to my dogie for an hour, then I went to sleep and never woke until my hunny got me up to have a coffee with him at 7:30 this morning. It is good to be home. Oh and the house was actually clean!!!haha. So it is now around 1:00 and I have just finished showering and having coffee. I think I am going to go check the mail and relax until tomorrow. Time to go to work.
Bye for now!