Some times life seems to lead you down roads you just don't understand...
My path right now seems unclear to me and I know that it will work out and things will eventually be fine, but right now I feel overwhelmed with life. If I think back to my child hood and up to now, I don't think that I have ever been "satisfied" if ever such a thing there is? I don't know.....I am sure I am not the only person that has this unsatisfied and unsure feeling, but where is my epiphany of life...when I finally know what it is I was put here for? Where is my satisfaction.....where do I look...yes I know...inside myself...but really...c'mon..it's gotta be easier than that.....how come some people seem to be complete? I just don't get it.
Anyways..enough of the blah blah blah....my time will come......

Letting go...............

Today, I will practice accepting myself and my present circumstances. I will begine to watch and trust the magic that acceptance can bring into my life.

Standing Alone

Sometimes I think that this is the hardest thing to do...besides being a parent.

Trying to do the things I like......

Well, I am going to try and keep this blog up again......I really did like to write. Things are just so different that I can not seem to focus though, but I am going to give this a good try anyway.
One thing I am going to share is I went fly fishing the other day...oooo how I wish my camera was remembered. I really dislike it when I forget it. Anyway, fly fishing is sooo fun! I will defiantly become a full time angler this year. I can't wait to get a big fish too :) !!
I know this is short but at least I am trying...right?
If you are reading this my dear friend...I miss you and all the little ones....I hope to see you soon.....and about our talk all is the same.......
Be back soon!

Still here....

Yes I am still here...I can not believe how long it has been since I have written anything.
Anyways, so many things have changed in my life since my last post that I could not possibly try and enter them into my blog. In fact I am not sure what to type now....I need to focus on a single thought which has proven to be very difficult for me. I don't know why it is but, my brain is not capable of only a single thought at a time.
Oh well....

? Not Much To Say?

Hmmm...well either I am tired of this blogging thing already or I just don't feel the need to share my feelings. So many things happen in a day, yet it seems that I just don't have anything to say. Why is that? Who knows, anyway. I am not sure that I will blog after this I don't feel like I am getting anything from it.
Life has been fine here. My other half's Aunt and her husband have moved to Penticton. They came for dinner the other night and it was a pleasant time. It is nice to have some of his family around. Without any hostel happenings. They were a pleasure to have. I can't wait to go and see her and do some shopping...yes she likes to shop! Anyway, other than that life is "normal" we work come home eat and sleep. Wait...is that normal? No fun...hmmm I am not sure hahaha oh well fun will come. Oh yeah we did get our hot tub fixed, so that is always nice too. Especially after karate. Stasia and I both are training this year. We go two times a week. Stasia is doing good. She has started piano lessens and she loves it. School is always good with her....my smart little cookie. Jeesh I am lucky.
Oh I did have a scare though. My heart is not feeling so well these days. Why? I have no idea. The other day I ended up going to the hospital to get some advice. I was in so much pain the night before and it was still hurting, not as much mind you, but still hurting. So I went on the urging of my spouse to get it checked out. The doctor said it could just be a sports injury from karate. So I could not train for the next class. Which I never did, but I went to the one after that. Well, I am not sure if that is it. I still have the pain on and off, but not as hurt full. So I will be going to my doctor on the 9Th to have some tests done. I am also going to get my cholesterol checked. I know....I am not that old, but better safe than sorry. I do have to admit that I did eat a lot of fast food while I was a teen and I am sure that did not help. So I am having it checked. I hope it is just gas...that is what I keep saying. So until next time if there is one.
ttyl

A good weekend

This was dinner tonight. Both of these dishes turned out wonderful and very yummy.

Anyway, this weekend was good. Saturday was the usual, did nothing. Sunday Stasia and I went for a bike ride. Yup, I bought a bike. It was just a cheep one from Zellers, but it will do me just fine. I have not rode a bike in years. I forgot how fun it is to just zoom around and see lots of things and let the wind blow in your face. It was great. Although my butt does hurt...have to buy a gel seat. Stasia and I went down to Bean and Gone our local coffee drive through and we just parked our bikes and walked up to the window and placed our order. We sat for a bit and enjoyed a sinfully tasting drink and then we were off. We rode around town and down by the channel. It was great. On the way home we had to go up hill, and yes my legs were like jelly when we got home. OH well, no pain no gain...right? So anyways, I had a little exercise and tried two new recipes and now I am sitting and enjoying a cup of Organic fare trade green tea! Couldn't ask for a better day. ttyl