Getting older

So yesterday, I thought why don't I take my daughter to the movies. That would be fun, right?
Well I learned that I am now to old and not to cool anymore. She went to the movies with me and hung out with me for a total of 2 mins. Yes just enough time for me to pay and hand her cash for the concession. She caught up with her friends there and I proceeded to my seat. She brought me a med popcorn and a small pop and left with my change and me sitting in my seat alone! Gosh when did I get old? And why did I have to? I tell you what sitting there by myself waiting for the movie to start was kinda saddening. I have had her to myself all these years and now empty handed I am. Oh well, I suppose that is the way the cookie crumbles.
Oh...the movie. We (in separate seats) seen The Fantastic 4 Rise of the Silver Surfer. My rating on a scale of one to ten is a seven. The first one was better. Anyway, bye for now.

Been a long time.

Time seems to go by so quickly. It seems like I haven't been on here for a long time. So...where to start. Well a lot has been happening. Stasia got her braces taken off, and she looks even more beautiful than before ( which is amazing because she was already gorgeous). Ummm what else. We have renovated parts of our house. The bathroom is finally getting put back together. The living room is no longer mint green (thank goodness). We are finally going to organize some of this computer wiring in the kitchen so it does not look like a technical disaster. That is a good start.
Stasia and I have been training this July. It has been mostly for kumite. I tell ya what...I suck right now! Who would think something like fighting would be that hard, well it seems to be. I learned I have no coordination. Yep two left feet or is it right feet? All the same right now. I am going to have to really apply myself before next fall so maybe I will catch on to some techniques and not get my ass kicked. Anyway, I think I still have a case of writers block. So until next time...take care.

Enjoying a sunny day.

Today we went to Vaseaux Lake. I went kayaking, as you can see, and Shane and his friend went fishing. They had no luck with fish, but Shane did catch a Lilly pad, poor guy it's better then nothing though.

Staisa is camping with her grandparents this weekend, so we haven't done much. Watch a movie, had a BBQ burger, and today the lake. We were there for about three hours, so I imagine my arms will be sore tomorrow. Oh well, it's not going to hurt me...right? When we got home I cut the front lawn and weeded the front flower bed, which was long overdue for a weeding. It looks so much better. I can actually see my hostas. I planted five of them last year, but only four came back. Which is fine, because the four that did come back are bigger and very nice to look at, so I don't miss number five. Anyway, I am going to go and get some more sun so enjoy the rest of your weekend. Happy July 1st everyone and enjoy the fire works.

Grade Seven

Well, that's it for another year. We now have a grade seven student living amongst us.
Congratulations Stasia on a job well done.
The most exciting thing for her is now she gets to wear make-up!

All Curfuffled!

Well, I have to say my friend has the most beautiful baby girl I have ever seen (next to my own daughter, that is). She is exquisite.
Actually it has thrown me for a loop. I am so emotional thinking back at my own time of having a baby and can not believe that I will never have another. Holding a precious gift of life.
My daughter has been and always will be the most wonderful gift I have ever received, but it hurts my heart to think it stops with her. There are so many things to think about though and for the majority I have talked myself out of thinking that I would be able to accommodate mother hood to anymore children. My biggest fear was breaking the bond with my daughter. You see, Stasia and I have travelled a long road together. She has always been my drive for life. Now though she is twelve and I know that is not all grown up and she still needs me and all that, but she just doesn't need me enough...you know? Which is good and I love the stages of watching her grow and soon she will be a teen and I can't wait to see her become a young teen girl, flirting and giggling and laughing and fussing all the good things. I just miss the baby times. She was a perfect baby. Never cried never grumpy she was a happy little bundle of joy.
Even if it was possible to have a child I would be older and right now I have started on a journey for myself. It's true you know..as you become and older woman (well, closer to the forties years) You really do become more complete and satisfied in your own self. I really love the time I am spending at karate, and kayaking( if I ever get out again) and times I get to just do nothing. But would I give it up again to hold and adore another gift of life? I don't know. What I do know is looking at Krista's baby and seeing pictures of her boys makes me think, yes I might. Time, luck, and patients, all contributing factors. Well, I suppose though maybe it will pass and I will just get over it, but it seems to always be burning in the back of my brain. What if? Is this really the end? Do I wait now until my daughter is grown and decides that she is ready to have children. What if she never does and I have become accustomed to the fact that I was going to be a grandma one day and settled for never having more because of that, and she decides she does not want them. Of course that would be fine, it's her life, but what if? This is just a post of rambling I really needed to get it out you know. This way it is still to myself and I don't have to talk to anyone about it, but of coarse you all are reading this so I also feel like I talked to someone, even though I didn't. So Rambling is done and the next post will be happy and I will be over the indecisiveness. No regrets Roght? Right. So good day to all and Thanks again. Krista...you have done a marvelous job...Hillary is wonderful. Enjoy!

Funny!

Funny Dog! I was playing with my new camera again, just to see what it can do. You know, different settings and what not. I put it on the fast shutter setting and got my dogie burning up some turf and this shot was one of many action shots of her. I posted this one, because I find it hilarious. Every time I look at it I lol.

Anyway, the rest of my weekend has been nice. Stasia is at Karate camp, working her butt off I am sure haha. So I had lots of time to myself and to spend it with my hunny. I started fixing up this corner of my back yard into a bird area. I love birds they are so funny to watch. Oh...I will have to take a pic of my little area for all to see, because it looks neat. It's like a bird community all little houses and feeders..its so cute. Ok anyway, I did that and my hunny put up his weather station ( Finally!) Its pretty neat. It has all the functions like wind pressure air pressure and temperature, blah blah it's pretty high tech for a home one. We ate take out ALL weekend (Stasia is going to be mad) So I did not have to cook. Oh but I did clean the house so I did some work that was not so fun. We watched movies, I even got Shane to watch a move that does not have to give warnings of language and violence etc before it starts. We watched Night at the museum. I liked it. I even think he did. Now today it Sunday and I am obviously sitting at the comp right now, but I am enjoying drinking coffee. Yummy there's nothing like a cup of java in the morning to get me started. Actually if I don't drink it I am a bear in the morning! Really.

I have to pick Stasia up at 2:30pm today (she will be exhausted) so I have a few more hours before I have to leave at 12:00pm to relax and take in more alone time ahhh. Such a wonderful thing. When you never have alone time it sure makes you appreciate it. Anyway have a great day to all.

Oh and one more thing Hillary hurry up and yourself into this world would you!

Just going in circles

Well it's been a while again since my last post. I don't know why that happens, but sometimes I just don't have anything at all to talk about on here. Anyway, It seems life is just swirling around me. Same routine; get up get Stasia ready for school, go to work, come home and clean, do laundry, make dinner (three different kinds) I say this because everyone in my house eats at different times including the dog! Also everyone eats something different. Anyway, after that I have been going for a run or a walk and then it's close to seven o'clock. There's a whole bunch more to do and I cram it all in there before I go to bed at eleven.
I have been wanting to use my kayak, but ever since I have gotten it the weather has been yucky. (Go figure) So here I am posting about nothing in particular. This weekend Stasia is off to karate camp. She absolutely loves going. Sensei is always laughing at her because she is always the first to ask "When is camp this year" almost right after we start again in September. It's funny though they work her but off and yet she still wants to go. Try working her at home, jeesh there's a headache waiting to happen. So hopefully this weekend is nice for the kids at camp and me going kayaking. I am keeping my fingers crossed.
I am counting down the days until I get to go to the island (home). I can almost smell the sea air! I am so excited to see my friends and my Grandma. Oh and playland is going to be fun too! Anyway for nothing to post this is just getting longer. So off to work I go. Take care and thanks for letting me ramble.